The Generational Curse

now listening to: James Taylor

My grandmother laid eyes on this wild eyed Texas boy on the beaches of Southern California, they did the long distance between Los Angeles and Royce City before tying the knot 6 months later. The sunny beaches were traded for the free spirited east Texas wind.

My mother turned a 15 min blind date in Vegas into a 23 year marriage with a farm-bred, sports fanatic, computer geek from Minnesota. Residing in Houston at the time, they did the long distance between Houston and LA before tying the knot 9 months later. . . Only after the ceremony did they find my mother crying behind the church after reality hit her that she was committed to moving to Houston from beautiful southern California. . .

Are we noticing a trend here? The city of LA should be renamed the city of long distance love. . . And just like my mother and grandmother, I'm seeing the possibilities of calling a city I never would have dreamed of calling home, a possibility. (now please enter the side note, of yes a lot can happen between now and then) I'm not in any means complaining. But I find it amazing how God can simply take you out of your comfort zone, of what YOU wanted, and could possibly put you in some place you never would have imagined, and make it amazing I just know. It's faith that reassures me that it's all part of a bigger plan.

I look at my life now: 5 years ago I would have foreseen the future and would have claimed that I be living in a high rise in Chicago working downtown in some up and coming business. A year ago I would have told you that I'd be in the middle of Africa saving children and working for the UN. But neither of those have happened, not saying that it couldn't or not saying I haven't tried. It's just not in my cards right now. Instead I find myself in Vail, CO (not a bad place to be bumming it), in my parents basement, working in retail, and soon to be working two jobs. Far away from the man I love, and uncertain of where I am going. I've learned that it's not what I want anymore by any means. I can't predict the future, where I'll end up, what I'll be. But right now in the present I've found so much joy: I've grown closer to my parents, been able to be supportive to someone other than myself, grown closer to God, rekindle friendships, spent time with my brother and sister, gain work experience, read books I've wanted to read, admire what a beautiful backyard my God has made, and for the first time in years: Breathe.