Today. . . was emoooooooooootional. (insert esj's voice). I don't really know why, either days are really boring up here, or jammed back with life changing events. Today, it was my manager's birthday, so we were all on a sugar high from cupcakes, and our store was pretty much a place for crack addicts. Everyone was chatting it up, customers were being difficult: "Well I'm a high spending customer, so you should keep my receipts on record. . ." Who do you think you are?! haha. So we found a giant martini glass that had been just unpacked, and set it upfront and we were accepting donations. . .
So after that fun filled four and half hours of stuffing homemade brownies down my managers mouth, in hope to sweet talk her into giving me my promotion. . . The emotional part of the day decided to kick in as fast as you could see the clouds roll in.
I've learned just from the few days that relationships are one of the most difficult and rewarding things that a human goes through. (right behind a 2k and child birth, only one of those I've taken part in. . .) I've always sort of laughed at people when they say, "Oh relationships take work, you have your ups and downs." I always figured that my relationship was going to be all lovey-dovey and that the honeymoon phase was going to last forever. Boy, I don't know where the heck I got that idea. Don't get me wrong, mine is full of love, and given the circumstances, I couldn't ask for better. I've been truly blessed and love him so much. But daaaaaaaaaaang, they take work. Over the last few days, thanks to: weird sleep schedules, the distance, law review, and just life. I became frustrated, and almost a little hurt. It was just a mess and I didn't know why I was being like this. I think it was the lack of communication due to work and school (on both ends), and the comments, and everything just piled up. My mom told me something the other day, that I wished I had listened to then, "you'll often find little things wrong, think the word is coming to end, and realize it's really not that big of a deal and not worth ruining something great over." So after almost breaking into tears, I realized how selfish I was being, I was hurt because I hadn't really heard from him, when he's working so hard, and the comments where just something I had said previously. All the sudden I realized that it's not always about me. That now there is someone else to consider, someone else's thoughts and feelings to worry about, and how YOUR actions affect them. My friend and her live in boyfriend broke up, this wasn't the first time, but the first time he actually moved out. It crushes you to see two people who you care about, throw the towel in. I believe they'll get back together, but sometimes you have to create a life for yourself. While no relationship is perfect and the honeymoon comes and goes from time to time, they really do take work on both ends. So, don't be afraid to be a little self-less and it's not always about you.
So, literally right after I had my little mini breakdown in the car, I get a text from one of my best friends: SHE's ENGAGED!. . . hahaha. I honestly at first thought it was a joke, because it's something her now fiancee and our friends have joked about. So I called her, and she's crying and then the water works start flowing out of my eyes, but tears of joy now. Funny, how relationships can turn. I just can't wait to mention at the wedding the night they met. . . hahahaha.
So then at dinner my sister calls us absolutely hysterical. My car, which was swiped, is sitting on Vail Pass (she was on her way home) with my car smoking. . . An hour later she's in the car with my Dad and I, laughing about it all. What a weird day.
So now, I've realized that a person needs to be selfless in any relationship, don't be afraid to let something go, in order to make it work. I talked to my closest friend for about 4 min this whole week, we used to talk for an hour every day, but I know she's busy, so I'll wait. I know the guy I love is busy working so hard for goals, so I'll wait. I know life hasn't caught up like I'd like it too, so I'll wait, and for all the customers who come into our store-we're working on that giant martini glass in the back, so please wait. . .
